Kawan makan kawan, apa kata korang?

Sekarang ni macam-macam manusia yang ada kat Bumi ni. Yang baik tu bagus la. Ada lak yang macam setan, memang rasa macam nak bunuh je kan? Tapi sebagai manusia normal, aku sabar jela (sebab tu je mampu).

Ada yang gila kuasa. Hmm... yang ni memang banyak la. Tak yah tengok jauh la. Macam aku yang still belajar kat kolej ni, ada ramai la juga yang gila kuasa. Sampai ada yang nak jatuhkan orang lain. Selain menyusahkan orang lain, sedikit sebanyak dapat turunkan semangat orang lain juga. Rasa macam bodoh je orang yang macam ni.

Ada pulak yang suka menjaja masalah orang ni! Aduh.. ni yang paling aku tak suka. Kalau orang dah bagi kepercayaan kat korang, takkan korang tak reti nak jaga kepercayaan tu? Dah la gi jaja cerita kat orang lain, pastu boleh lak dia tambah 'ajinamoto' kat cerita tu. 'Bagusnya dapat kawan macam korang ni'. Terima kasih la banyak-banyak!

Apa boleh buat.. aku pun dah malas nak layan orang yang suka makan kawan ni. Ingat kita ni tak ada perasaan macam diorang kot. Suka-suka nak cakap pasal kita. Macam diorang tu tau sangat pasal kita. Diri sendiri macam bangang, ada hati nak cerita pasal orang lain.

Aku tulis blog ni secara general. Kalau ada 'kawan' yang terbaca blog, and terasa dengan post kali ni, jangan salahkan aku. Korang sendiri nak terasa tu korang punya pasal! Kalau korang rasa pernah or still buat apa yang aku post-kan hari ni, cepat-cepatlah minta maaf kat orang yang korang buat salah tu, takkan aku nak ajar pulak kan!? Jangan fikir aku happy-happy dengan korang, aku dah lupa semua yang korang pernah buat kat aku. Sikit pun aku takkan lupa. Bukan aku nak kata aku ni pendendam, tapi aku nak jadikan semua tu sebagai pengajaran hidup aku selama aku masih hidup kat dunia ni. Jangan pernah minta untuk aku lupakan kesalahan korang, faham?

Result oh result!

Tadi kolej aku keluarkan result semester lepas. Ingat nak datang awal, tapi aku 'kalah' lak. Mengantuk gila! So plan B, gi kolej pukul 11. Dah bersiap semua, gerak dengan Ejat, kawan satu bilik aku. Minum-minum dulu kat kolej. Ambil nombor giliran dulu.... nanti ramai orang!

Tapi sementara aku minum-minum kat kedai petak, boleh lak system down. Patutlah sebelum aku lepak sampai aku habis lepak, still nombor yang sama je. Hampeh gak la! Dah la cuaca panas. Orang ramai. Haish!

Sementara tunggu giliran, lepak la dengan kawan-kawan. Macam-macam hal la! Dapat lak lepak dengan kawan-kawan yang extend semester ni, Faiz and Syafiq. Jumpa diorang memang best la! Rindu korang! Yang Easy lak leh buang tebiat, jadi 'hantu cina' sementara nak ambil result. Jangan tension weyh!

Apa-apa hal, tahniah kat semua yang berjaya. Bagi yang tak berjaya, don't give up! Banyak-banyak berdoa and jangan lupa USAHA SENDIRI!

P/S: Terima kasih kat Mama Abah sebab banyak berdoa dan berpuasa untuk Hani semasa final exam semester lepas! Tanpa Mama Abah, Hani tak dapat keputusan macam ni untuk kali ke-4. Pointer 3.85 ni terlalu banyak untuk Hani dan Hani kena berterima kasih kat Mama Abah. Sayang Mama Abah!

Baaaaaarrggghh!

Haish bosan gila hari ni. Takat main dengan hamsters, online, tengok TV.. agak lah membosankan! Tak ada aktiviti lain ke?

Sok dah kena nak balik Shah Alam. Dengar cerita Jumaat nanti result nak keluar. Hmm.. apa yang aku dapat agaknya nanti? Sama-sama kita tunggu!

Owh malam ni dah masuk 25hb April! Birthday Akmal, kawan sekolah aku dulu. Sekarang dah maju dah dia. Photographer kata kan.. hehe! Bila ko nak panggil aku jadi model ko? Haha joke!

Isnin dah start kelas balik. After a week jadi nerd, exam mid-term. So jumpa lagi la nanti! Daa~

Super Mario Land!

Bosan nya pasal tak dapat tido, aku pun chatting la dengan kawan-kawan aku kat YM; Farizal, Dinie, Syed and Akmal. Tengah dok chatting dengan Akmal, leh lak aku buka cerita pasal game ni, Super Mario!

Rasa macam nak main je balik game ni. Best! Makan cendawan leh jadi besar & tinggi. Teringat lak masa kecik-kecik dulu. Mak aku cakap kalau nak jadi tinggi & besar macam Mario, kena makan cendawan banyak-banyak! Alhamdulillah.. aku masih tidak besar-besar seperti yang dijanjikan. Haha! Lepas tu ada pokok bunga lak. Nanti Mario tu leh ludah keluar api. Pergh aku dulu masa kecik punya la nak ludah camni. Keluar api gitu huhu~

Lepas tu ada lak bintang kelip-kelip, siap kena kejar lagi. Baru leh jadi kebal. Langgar je semua cendawan and kura-kura jahat tu. Sure mampos semua! Apa lagi eh? Ha! Ada lak hidden mushroom warna hijau, ni lak kuar kan cendawan 1-Up. Kira leh tambah satu lagi nyawa Mario la en. Pergh.. dasat Mario ni. Bila dah habis satu stage, kena lari kuat-kuat, gayut kat tiang bendera tu. Lagi tinggi lagi bagus! Power Mario ni..

Musuh-musuh dia lak kelakar betul! Cendawan tu muka ketat je. Senyum la sikit. Yang kura-kua tu lak muka blur-blur je. Macam tak ada perasaan! Siap ada yang boleh terbang lagi. Yang paling aku benci yang awan dok ikut je Mario tu. Dah la dia kasi turun landak merah tu! Buat sakit hati je bila terkena kan?

Yang paling best, bila pecahkan batu dapat point and kadang-kadang dapat duit free. Best!

Papahal, aku rindu dengan game ni. First time aku main game ni masa tu pakai kaset lagi. Kena cocok kat slot, kadang-kadang tu tak detect, kena tekan kuat-kuat. Punya pressure nak main. Haish! Apasal aku cerita pasal Mario kat blog aku ni? Nampak sangat aku tengah bosan tengah-tengah malam ni.

Don't blame this feelings

Last night was a confession night! I admit everything to him. I know it was a little bit too late. But I still like him. Maybe.. love him.

I told to my 'loyal fan' about everything happened to me last night. Of course he did jokes for me to happy. But deep down, I feel sad.

I still remember when the first time I met him. I was going out for awhile. Then I saw my friend in my workplace at al-Ikhsan in Metropoint Kajang. We talked a lot on that day and he introduced me to his friend. Since then, we were always hang-out together. Unfortunately, we lost contact for about one and a half year.

With God willing, he contacted with me again. And he, at last, confess that he likes me too. Of course I'm happy! But I can't give him any responds. He gives me some time. But I don't know until when I will be like this.

I think I must do SOLAT ISTIKHARAH (Is this the spelling? Nevermind..) haha! Hope I will be okay later. Wipe this tears!

Let it go for awhile, will you?

Aku rasa tertekan sangat dengan hidup aku baru-baru ni. Tapi aku tau.. aku tak leh fikir macam ni.

Tapi aku bernasib baik dapat kawan macam Hanif my loyal fan (haha!), Farizal my scandal yang tak pernah menjadi, Zik my chatting buddy, my classmates, and of course... my parents, Mr Shahbudin and Mrs Zawiyah. Love you Mama Abah!

Minggu ni aku dah start exams. Paper aku start hari Rabu nanti. Harap dapat la jawab paper tu semua. Study pun dah. Tapi kena banyakkan lagi membaca (walaupun tak suka). Terlalu banyak! Oh damn!

Let's learn Tamil!

I was so bored in class today. 

So my friends and I asked more questions to Dash. 

What's this and that in Tamil. 

Quite interesting! 

I wanna know more. 

But my lecturer just arrived to the class. 

So.. study! 

 Thanks to my 'new lecturer' - Dash. 

For the new words in Tamil. 

Hehe!

p/s: Yen peer Hani. Nee yepidi iruke? Vaa sapedelum! Haha!

First assignment

Can't believe I managed to finish my 

FIRST ASSIGNMENT 

for this semester! 

Tomorrow I can go to CC 

and print the assignment! 

Since my partner for this assignment kinda busy. 

Yeah.. he handles an orientation for fresh students. 

It takes for this week to settle it. 

But he gave me some info. 

So that I can arrange and sort it. 

And now, 

SYAM, IT'S DONE! 

Now, 

concentrate on mid-term exam! 

MY PAPER: 

Wed (21 April 2010) - Technology, Communication, & Society

Thurs (22 April 2010) - Islamic Study 

Good luck PTPL students!

Quite busy...

I'm quite busy right now 

with my assignments 

(although it's just one assignment only..) 

at this time. 

I don't know what I should update on this blog. 

Kinda lazy lately. 

And I'm still waiting for my last semester's result. 

There are too much dean list maybe 

(haha!) 

And now... 

I should be ready for my mid-term exams. 

It should be next week, 

I guess. 

So don't forget to wish me luck!

Din Beramboi dah meninggal, tapi ada yang mengutuk dia.

Baru je tadi aku online. Aku dapat invitation dari kawan aku untuk join satu group ni, 'Kami benci RAFIQIN DARWISY mengutuk kematian Din Beramboi'. Aku pun tengok la page dia lepas aku klik join. Mula-mula aku tercari-cari gak apa yang budak Rafiqin Darwisy (RD) ni buat. So aku pun search. Then ada member sorang ni bagi link ke blog diorang. Aku pun gi la klik link tu. 

Alangkah terkejutnya bila aku baca isi blog tu! Budak RD ni actually baru 13 tahun, tapi dah pandai nak cakap yang luar dari batasan agama dan polisi laman web sosial. Kalau aku jumpa RD ni dah lama aku bagi sedas kat dia! Ni la jadi bila budak bodoh yang baru nak belajar tentang MySpace or Facebook. Mak ayah hantar sekolah belajar agama, sivik, akhlak, tapi gi panjat pagar sekolah! Hmm... entah la.. 

Ni blog yang memuatkan wall comment yang di-post oleh RD. 

- MiraLyana: Rafiqin Darwisy

- The Other Khairul: Menghina kematian arwah Din Beramboi

Yang telah membaca blog tu, harap korang renung-renungkanlah sebelum korang nak post apa-apa kat wall korang. Tak semua orang suka dengan apa yang korang suka. Dan tak semua orang benci dengan apa yang korang benci. Kalau benda yang sensitif yang melibatkan agama, kematian, atau apa saja yang boleh membawa kemudaratan ni, baik korang diam je. 

Tak yah la nak buat 'luahan perasaan' kat public, especially on MySpace or Facebook. Sekarang ni pun, ramai yang dah pun naik turun court disebabkan kelancangan kita di alam maya. So berhati-hatilah, okay? 

Reunite

It was just only a day. 

But I missed you guys! 

I just back Shah Alam now. 

I'm happy 'coz I have my hamsters again! 

I can't believe they are all in a good condition. 

I bought cheesy wedges and cheekaroni at KFC nearby. 

Well, they like cheese. 

They are hamsters, right.... 

so they eat cheese! 

I took a spoon of cheese from my food 

and gave them! 

They licked and ate that cheese.

Even when I used my finger, 

they licked it so much!

Now they all sleepy. 

Too much to eat maybe. 

New toy!

I'm home at Kajang now. 

Tired! 

Before that, I went to Metropoint Kajang. 

I bought a new running wheel for my hamsters. 

Meanwhile, they just sit, run and hide in their house. 

No exercise! 

How pity of them. 

But they are cute! 

I forgot that I didn't get my breakfast yet. 

And also my lunch. 

But I don't know what to eat. 

I'm alone at home right now. 

So I just watching the TV, online, and... rest! 

Tomorrow I have to go back to Shah Alam.

I'm so worry about my kids there. 

I don't know they are okay or no. 

Have they eat already? 

But I just filled their food right before I leave them. 

I told my housemates to take care of them for a while. 

I hope they okay... 

I love my hamsters so much! 

P/S: Takziah buat keluarga Mior Ahmad Mior Badri atau Din Beramboi. Allahyarham telah meninggal dunia pada malam tadi akibat demam denggi. Semoga roh Allahyarham dicucuri rahmat Allah SWT dan tergolong dalam orang-orang yang beriman. Amin~

~ AL-FATIHAH ~

It followed me...

Last two days, 

there was a kitten followed me home. 

It was a beautiful kitten. 

Manja sangat! 

But I can't kept her. 

So today. 

I take her home. 

I don't know where. 

But I just leave her near surau. 

Then I ran to the stairs, 

and walked to the college. 

I heard it cried.. 

I felt like I want to take it home. 

But I can't! 

Oh kitty... I want to keep you. 

I wish I can. 

Just a piece of junk...

At this time, only my little hamsters can make me happy. 

None can do this. 

I feel like I'm so hopeless right now. 

I really want to talk to my mom, about all of my problems. 

But I just can't make it. 

I can't talk. Like there's a key to make my mouth opens. 

So I just type it. 

Maybe my dad or my brother will read it some time later.

I got a boyfriend. 

And he like to accuse me, something I didn't do. 

I know I'm just a piece of paper, not like a color paper like other girls. 

He said I'm not his type. 

And I feel like I'm the one who run to catch him, while he do nothing. 

He's a handsome guy. 

Many girls say so. And some of them really like him. 

Of course I'm jealous! 

But I'm his girlfriend. He admit it, just once. 

Now, he always talk about other girls. 

Sometimes he will asked me to do this and that just like some girls that he saw. 

I know I'm not pretty. 

I don't know how to dress like a beautiful girls, with a baby shirt, lady's jeans and a heels. 

But me is me! 

Can't he accept what I am?

Maybe I like to ask. 

He always said he's not comfortable with me. 

He's boring with me. And getting fed up sometimes. 

But I still waiting for his SMS or call like a stupid girl. 

Yeah.. he always called me stupid. And some other names he wants to call me. 

Like he never respect me as a lover. 

I always think, if I could turn back time, 

I will never met him, and go on with my ex again. 

But I know, it's too late now. 

My ex will never contacted with me. 

I will never share my problems with him again. 

My boyfriend, maybe, makes me like a doll. 

If he wants to play, he searches for it. 

And will dump it if he's getting bored.

Maybe this is my 'reward' after I hurt people that love me so much. 

I know I'm wrong. 

It's all my mistakes and I'm so sorry for what I've done.